Confusion

Oh no   what's this?

a dilemma and I'm caught in the middle

Oh no   what's more?

a desirable future awaiting but I'm forbidden

what's this distress 

this mess

this strangeness

I need to make up this mind 

to confess

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I will tell you two intertwining secrets then

a settled woman is not a settled woman

a stable mind is not a stable mind

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do not believe me when

when I say I am solid or I am set

when I say I am getting along well

I cannot even dwell 

  

what's this distress

this mess

this strangeness

what happened to my mind

once full of cleverness

now obsessed 

A Fear of Change

you are no longer the same

a little more foolish

what is this shame?   who would you blame?

yourself or yesterday's game?

please stay sane

you are no longer the same

a moment you are dreaming 

a moment you are awake

a moment you love the rain

a moment you hate

a moment you are quiet

a moment you are a violin 

screaming pleasure

screaming din

please stay sane

you are no longer the same

oh dear

do not dare commit a sin

for your mind will frown

and you blessings will drown

look at the usual rain    the usual window frame

count your blessings

and please stay sane

*Note to self: do not lose your brain