Saturday, 18 December 2021

sweet sweet boy

I dreamt I was shut in a little box

I say nice to meet you

and walls close up upon me

suffocate me


am I ever entirely happy? 

who is this boy...Happy?

you are around me                   stay around me

perhaps that is what it feels to be happy

my happiness dissolves into something incomplete

never                 never              was it complete


hello, sweet!

your eyes peeping     gawking      weeping

with a flame

am I to blame? 

like a candle laid on an ethereal grave

your eyes lay and burn me        and your gaze

oh sweet!


only here I allow my heart to breathe

without having to watch out

I want to breathe 

is there one thing more deadly than an abandoned grave

you, my sweet!

how could you be so sweet?


everything remains incomplete

Thursday, 11 November 2021

Warmth

I would love to be held with tender and care. I would love it if I can caress your face and your hair. And follow it up with a kiss on the hand as we make eye contact. When we lock lips just know both of my hands will be holding you. Cheek by cheek and our lips in between. I’ll make love to every part of you. Every inch.

I miss you - that is all I feel
I miss you - that is all I say



You make my heart shiver
you make me quiver

Do you feel me too?

Chasing Shadows 

Can you hear me?


Lunchtime is nice and hot

Could it be that it’s our lucky day

Found you standing by my car

I got my big Riviera 


Let’s get out of this hour baby we’re on fire

Sun is burning my blood and you’re igniting my de-si-re

If you stick with me you’ll make me higher and higher

Everyone around here is looking nobody is ground


Blue please, satin shirt, walked into the world and found you’re no longer here

I was like no please!

Hello hello, can you hear me? 

Your love is deadly 


I know I’ll miss you forever 

Like the poor misses shade on a homeless sunny day

I’m not better than ever

Even if you’re gone I’m gonna cry

Sunday, 27 June 2021

Pride and Prejudice Book Review

 

Summary

Pride and Prejudice revolves around the Bennet family, which consists of Mr. and Mrs. Bennet and their five daughters. Mrs. Bennet is desperate to marry off her daughters, as it was crucial in the 19th century to have one’s daughters married, or else the unmarried girls would be deemed as shameful and useless to the family. The eldest daughter of the family is Jane, follows her is Elizabeth, and the novel focuses on mainly those two sister as well as the love stories they live later on. Comes into their lives Mr. Darcy, who is about to rent an estate nearby the family, along with his friend Mr. Bingley, and those gentlemen find interest in the two eldest Bennet daughters. Although Elizabeth and Darcy fall victims of misjudgment and prejudice, they eventually come to understand that they are both in love with each other. Similarly, as Jane and Mr. Bingley catch feelings for each other, they have to face and dodge some obstacles to finally settle together.

Main themes related to English society           

            Class and social status are two of the dominant themes in the novel, as much as they were dominant in England back in the 19th century. Pride and Prejudice highlights the prejudice and the judgment that arise due to the difference in people’s social status or class. For instance, consider Darcy’s pride in his class and his prejudice against Elizabeth’s family because of the reality that they are of a somewhat inferior class. Darcy says, “Could you expect me to rejoice in the inferiority of your connections? To congratulate myself on the hope of relations, whose condition in life is so decidedly beneath my own?” (Ch. 34, Pg. 240)

            Consider also Mr. Collins constant bragging of his relationship with Lady Catherine. Mr. Collins in that way is revealing how class conscious he is, he also reveals that being related to a member of the aristocratic society then he is more worthy of respect and admiration. “I have more than once observed to Lady Catherine that her charming daughter seemed born to be a duchess, and that the most elevated rank, instead of giving her consequence, would be adorned by her. — These are the kind of little things which please her ladyship, and it is a sort of attention which I conceive myself peculiarly bound to pay.” (Ch. 14, Pg, 83)

            Another very prominent theme in the novel is women—or how society treats women. Austen criticizes the pressure put on women and the standards that a woman needs to meet in order to be deemed as womanly. During the conversation that takes place between Darcy, Elizabeth, Mr. Bennet and his sister, Darcy claims that a lady must posses certain skills (which are not so few, actually!) to be viewed as womanly. Darcy says, “no one can be really esteemed accomplished, who does not greatly surpass what is usually met with. A woman must have a thorough knowledge of music, singing, drawing, dancing, and the modern languages, to deserve the word; and besides all this, she must possess a certain something in her air and manner of walking, the tone of her voice, her address and expressions, or the word will be but half deserved.” (Ch. 8, Pg, 47) Austen then cleverly utilizes Elizabeth to mock those stereotypical judgments of women by teasing Darcy at his knowing very few women, Elizabeth says, “I am no longer surprised at your knowing only six accomplished women. I rather wonder now at your knowing any.” (CH. 8, Pg, 48)                

Weaknesses and strengths

            One of the weaknesses of the novel, I find, is how much silly and funny some of the characters are, to the point where it feels pretentious and overall funny. One of the characters I mean is Mrs. Bennet for instance. They way she portrays herself, or from another perspective the way Austen uses Mrs. Bennet as very desperate and hungry for money and marriage to her daughters is just silly.

            On the other hand, one strength that the novel posses is the character’s ability to realize and recognize their own faults and mistakes, and openly admit them. For instance, Elizabeth in one of the chapters says, “But vanity, not love, has been my folly…” (Ch. 36, Pg. 259) when she reads Darcy’s letter explaining his sentiments against Wickham after she had misjudged him for being greedy and unjust.

Conclusion: personal reflection on the writing style of Austen

            Apart from the fact that the novel discusses prevalent and important social issues, Austen makes her novels too good to be true, in other words the happy endings in her novels—take for instance Persuasion as well as Pride and Prejudice—are a little unrealistic. Moreover, in comparison to other writers who belonged to the same era, e.g., Charlotte Bronte, the air that Austen creates with her novels is far more optimistic and bright than other novels such as Jane Eyre or Villette. Those novels by Bronte create an air of suspense and tragedy rather than being all happiness and butterflies.

            Though Austen creates somewhat unrealistic plot(s), it is inevitable to have a couple of laughs at her witty writing style and at her use of sarcasm to tease some of her characters. Austen, for instance, makes fun of how insensible Mary Bennet is, by saying… “Mary wished to say something very sensible, but knew not how.” (Ch. 2, Pg, 7) In other words, Austen’s writing style is identifiable by its sarcasm and humor.

Sunday, 31 January 2021

Letter Home

Mon amie,

I have received your last message affirming that you've landed at home. And what better affirmation than your safety and happiness there is? I don't know. I want to dearly say sorry for not promptly sending a response. My silence could mean two things: either I am sick at heart or ill at body. The latter disqualified - only I am sick at heart. What are the good that clutch to my clutching to this place. Son of man, you don't know. Where does the sun beat, and the tree give shelter, and the breeze any relief? I too don't know. 

Is it possible? That I perhaps feel less heavy at heart soon. And is there anyone to make it possible? And what would the doctor say? Come back, son amie. I want, truly desire and want, more of you. We haven't had much time, and it pains me to survive in this place without the image of you and me. If I should go anywhere in the world right now...where are you? 

I miss you deeply, awfully, senselessly. I have missed you since the day I met you. All this time I've longed for nothing but you. Enough of that. Write to me so I know you're happy at home. And write to me so I remain sane at the thought of you sitting there with a bouquet of words for me.  


Yours